Yes...It's been awhile. I apologize for this. However, a million things have happened, and I am sad to say Siren has been lost. I got a new Dell laptop specifically for writing, and once i started getting ideas the old Siren was no where to be found not on DA not in my email, not in any old files on the old computer. It is gone...all 70 or more pages...vanished into thin air. I cried...that was the base on which I was making it better. I know, half of the people that read this thing "dont you just remember what you wrote?" Sadly no, I have never really been able to remember what I have written.

A few amazing things did happen, I for the first time at the age of 18 went on a plane. And not only did I get on a plane, I got to visit Slovakia & Hungary. The love of my life was born in Slovakia and moved to the US at the age of 3. Talk about amazing, I fell in love with a country, and the culture, even most of the people.

Oddly, even being so young I can't figure out why i crave to have my own family, and am ready to be so much older than I am. I take of a lot of things already, been through so much already, I just want something steady and amazing. I know I love someone with all my heart and if I had two hearts I'd love him with both of them. I know I can spend the rest of my life with him, but how do I seperate myself from him if he doesn't want the same thing?

This is the beginning of..a lot of unnamed/unknown poetry. I don't know what it's about, what it means. I kinda just want everyone to make up their own story and tell me what they think, and what their story is. A lot has been going on, I know Siren is taking a lot longer than what people were hopeing for, but I have been going through a lot of stuff, so please bare with me. Hopefully I get to get with a friend Xtsee and do a little photoshoot! I'm SUPER SUPER SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR excited!!! I can't wait.

So, Siren is being revamped (again) I know, I know...I'm such a tweaker i keep messing with it lol Dollface A few new chapters, a few new faces. A few new...surprises What other updates? It's almost Christmas, which would be an awesome holiday if most people knew what it was really about, and it wasnt so commercialized. Anywho, I'll b off for now to revamp and tweak

Ta-Ta For Now!
~Brianna

First off I would like to say, the books were and still are amazing. However, what the fuck happened to the movie??? They killed it, the got rid of practically half the book, and ruined everything. So upsetting, I went to the midnight release thinking, (hopeing) they would get it right...holy shit was I dissapointed. Edward didn't look like Edward, Bella looked stoned the entire time. They fucked Alice, Jasper, Emmet, Rosalie, Carlisle, Esme, and everyone else's parts all to hell. I mean really, Alice had like no part, Jasper said like 5 words MAYBE. Talk about some shittastic screenplay, and script. Seriously, WTF!?!?!?! How could Stephenie Meyer let that happen?! The KILLED, no maybe SLAUGHTERED is a better word, the meadow scene, and everything. Absolutely ridiculous, I wasted money on those tickets, and would love to get that money back, $23 for two movie tickets, what a fucking rip off. If they make the other books into movie dear God please please please let them be actually worth going to see, and spending that much money on. They barely even put in the fight scene, and nothing about Jasper and the airport, they could have atleast put in the chapters that Stephenie Meyer didn't put in the book, but no, NOTHING. I would give this movie like 1 star, absolutely horrible. Maybe half a star would be better. The movie was two hours long, and I'm sitting there thinking "thats not what happened", "thats not how that happened" and "when is this going to be over?" I just can't believe that she would let them ruin her book like that, its ridiculous, I'm so upset right now. How?! Why?! Nothing was as it should be, it wouldn't have even been a good movie if I hadn't read the book. I'm totally and 100% saddened by all of this. Here was I looking forward to something...and that all got taken away.

How does someone know if what they fight for or think is the right to do? Is it just that someone thinks it, there for it is? I've had some very unfortunate things happen to me lately. On the bright side, I'm getting a kitten. Fun fun. Ugh, so many things to think about, so many things that have happened. I have no inspiration to do anything, except drive fast fast fast. I dont know why I'm testing my fate, it just seems like a good idea. Only time will tell right?